From Shorts to Trousers

How does it feels to step into a new new world? How does it feels to leave a complete world with every little happiness 1200 km behind and move on with setting up a new one? A few years back I had these questions in my mind when I would acquaint someone moving away from home. Now I know all the answers. It feels good and bad. Sweet and sour at the same time. I was a lot excited about it. Not that I was leaving my home,family and friend behind but about those that I’d make now.

Pune was better than I expected. After a lot of this as that, finally that day comes when you step into a new life. It took me great struggle to get what I have right now. I was never the brightest of the lot I was in, but for some reason, I had my moments every now and then when I would out perform myself and amuse the whole bunch of people around me and even myself. It takes a lot more to prove your worth to people who despise you. IT TAKES A LOT OF PATIENCE. Yes it does. It takes a lot of effort to ignore those people and keep doing things your way. You need to break their rules. You need to break bad.

Last 45 days have been quite an experience for me. Saw a lot of things that altered me as a person. Felt a lot of things that nurtured me a human. Made some fabulous bonds with great people. Learnt things monstrously. Missed home equally. And most of all, been away from this digital personal space for a long time. 😀 Maybe it was due to lack of motivation. Working in my new job I learnt that you tend to work more effectively when you are being recognized for it. I recently realized that my minute digital print on WordPress was being missed. 🙂

I also met few people I would not call “the best alive on earth. 😀 Sorry folks, but that’s that. I can’t pretend to like someone whom I don’t. This corporate world ,at times, makes you doubt your own judgement of people. But I am not gonna break this month long fast of digital silence with bitching about people around me. (Come on, don’t loathe me,everybody likes to bitch about others).

Music has been my soul mate here. It liberates me from all the shit in this world. And when the only thing you do for 8 hrs in a day is listen to music, it kind of start defining your life. You start to connect every single event of the day to the songs you listen. You grow more and more sensitive to sounds. Any type of music starts to sooth your senses. It kind of becomes your drug. It becomes your refuge from all the mental fatigue. It is your stress buster at work. It is your entertainer at home. When you live alone in a new city with new people around you, you certainly need something that can get you high, can get you shut the whole world mentally and take you to a paradise where you rule, where it’s your wish. Some people find this high in booze. I do in music. Weather and a pair of headphones is all I need to feel complete here.

It’s difficult to move to a new city all by yourself. But there have been very few sour experiences. Most of the memories that I have captured in the last 45 days are gonna last for a long time. It makes you feel disgusting to share the same room with someone you don’t know well enough. But that’s when practicality hits you on the face. And slowly you start to ADJUST.

It took me around a week to adjust to this new life. But every now and then there have been turns and twists. Every few weeks there was something new to adjust to. And after 45 days in this city, this is the first weekend when I could sit down, plug in my music and write this blog. That’s how unappealingly eventful my weekends have been. But I love this weekend. No cloths to launder, no utensils to wash. This is “ME TIME”. Apparently I did not realize that I needed this break more than anything until one of my rommie did this. I feel good. Sitting in the balcony with my playlist dancing in my head. This is so good. And the best part is, Sunday is yet to come. Probably tomorrow I’ll read something. But first I am gonna enjoy today, finish this blog, go for a long walk in the pleasantly cold Pune’s evenings. Eat an ice cream maybe and then come back home, sleep early today. That’s my plan for today. It might seem the most boring weekend that anybody could ever spend but that’s me. That’s how I like my weekends. I’d prefer to spend time with myself than party outside with others. I like to socialize a lot but I like to go out on dates with myself more.

I have no idea what the next few month’s gonna bring form me, but whatever they may be, I know I’ll find a way to make the most out of them… 🙂

Too many things on my mind.

Lately I haven’t been on wordpress much. It all started on 13th this month. I was eagerly waiting for the result of this Job interview that i went through the week before. Till this day I was very clear about my career path for the next year or so. That day passed with little celebrations and a few congratulation calls from friends and family. Seemed like a pretty good day to me. The worst followed the next day. I received an email stating that I have made it to an MBA college I applied for. Well this, at first, seemed like a WOW moment. Getting two things that i always wanted to. But then, I had to decide which one to let go and which one to hold on. That is when the hardest part starts. Then next few days passed horribly with me along with my family brainstorming about both the options but still the balance was equally weighted for both of them. I had sleepless nights, not because I was worried or anxious but because I was up all night chatting with seniors ,employees and Ex-employees about the credibility of choosing that stake. There was a time I would make up my mind for one, and the next morning I was completely blank why I chose that. It was like you were given a choice to take home Either Angelina Jolie and Scarlet Johansson. None seemed better over other and none seemed lesser of other. I was too scared to flip a coin because I thought the coin would not come down.
In a day or two I got pretty pissed off. Nobody giving me a straight answer. Though one of my closest friend (Raunaq) was trying very hard to convince me into job. I really appreciate his effort there and his friendship throughout my graduation. But the thing was I was too skeptical about myself, I felt I may not succeed in the MBA entrance exams two years from now. I failed to trust my ability. I always boasted a practical personality, but here I realized the true me. After a lot of data crunching and anticipating the future prospects that might be best for me with the advice of a few i trust, I settled for one. The Job. But these 7 days have been the longest and the most mentally torturing days of my life. I couldn’t even celebrate for the happiness i received. In-fact I dont remember being happy these 7 days. All i remember is being worried and anxious and checking my facebook profile every 15 mins for any messages from people I’ve been consulting about this. And I am not happy about this. There were times I wished that I hadn’t got both these opportunities at the same time. But as it turns out or rather as it had to turn out, I voted for one and now I have accepted the fact that I will have to live with the consequences whatever they may be.

Game Theory

Real life is the game that – literally – everyone is playing

Life ,as it appears , is a game played by everyone at every moment. It is like one of those endless run games where one runs in a particular direction avoiding obstacles. The goal , however, i realized by a few people and conquered by fewer.

I’ve gotta run because people tell me to do so.

It seems rather pointless to head for the same direction as everybody else. But nonetheless, we still play the game.

The game starts when we are young. It is when we learn the rules of this game. We are overflowing with our zeal and have plenty of energy. At this moment of time, we get to choose a character while the bigger deals like job,car,house,lover etc are still to be unlocked.

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Our experience is still low and a few skill set  also remains locked. It is for us to unlock them. And as we grow, we evolve these traits continuously. One of them being how to obey. Sometimes you may find your own mind going against you, for example it is always hard to resist the temptation to come online in exams. DON’T PANIC. This isn’t a bug in you source code.

Once you master your mind, try playing with others’. You will feel a sudden urge to find a partner. This task is ,in itself, a mini game.  You will require heavy artillery because this level may be close to world war.You may be rejected by several other players. This ,however, is normal, may diminish your willpower. Try to maintain a minimum threshold of it for other tasks. You may be allowed multiple lives at this level, you might just want to play smart to achieve the best lover. 

Once you complete this level, you will find difficulty increased exponentially. With greater responsibilities and much more expectation you may find it difficult to achieve your ultimate goal. But keep your eye on the ultimate prize as this was just a auxiliary mission that you’ve completed. Meanwhile, this level also unlocks several achievements like Happiness, Love and Headache.

Now, it is the time to earn. This is the most important level with almost unlimited upgrades and achievements.

The most important rule of money is never to borrow it, except for things that earn you more back.

Recurring deposits like education may act as a good investment scheme with substantially larger returns for longer period of time.

As time passes you will find your energy reserve depleted and slower recovery. These may be symptoms of aging. Check for other symptoms like Hearing problem, walking problem, health issues etc. If the reports are positive, it may be time for you to retire and save your energy. All players die after about 29,000 days, or 80 years. If your stats and skills are good, you might last a little longer.

Remember there are no cheat codes to this game. That’s why your strategy is important. Because by the time most of us have figured life out, we’ve used up too much of the best parts.

Now you’d best get playing.

(Contd.) 7 days off from life

Burn Them All

I left Mumbai, before the city was asleep, and I was thinking why couldn’t the roads be at 12 noon in Mumbai as well as in Delhi as they were at 4 AM. Nevertheless, I was off from Mumbai and reached Goa in about 3 hours. 1 hour flight and 2 hours in checking in at airport. Yes it took 2 hours to check in and get through security.

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Meanwhile, I was about to experience the most captivating sunrise of my whole life from 7000 feet. Probably the most enchanting 10 minutes of my life.

Goa was relatively clean, green and a lot less dense.Yes population of Goa is 1.458 million and Mumbai is 20.7 million. (This is not me but wiki speaking). I remember, while landing at Mumbai, I could see a forest of ghetto(slums) and  we flew just a few hundred meters over them. But Goa was poles apart from that.

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(Contd.) 7 days off from life

I left Mumbai, before the city was asleep, and I was thinking why couldn’t the roads be at 12 noon in Mumbai as well as in Delhi as they were at 4 AM. Nevertheless, I was off from Mumbai and reached Goa in about 3 hours. 1 hour flight and 2 hours in checking in at airport. Yes it took 2 hours to check in and get through security.

 

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Meanwhile, I was about to experience the most captivating sunrise of my whole life from 7000 feet. Probably the most enchanting 10 minutes of my life.

Goa was relatively clean, green and a lot less dense.Yes population of Goa is 1.458 million and Mumbai is 20.7 million. (This is not me but wiki speaking). I remember, while landing at Mumbai, I could see a forest of ghetto(slums) and  we flew just a few hundred meters over them. But Goa was poles apart from that.

While driving down from Airport to the city, it felt a lot better and HOT .( I mean that in literally 😐 ). It felt like 35 degrees outside at 8 in the morning. We were driving down the hills (yes, i was surprised too that there were hills in Goa) and I was sweating. It was quite the opposite weather I expected. We reached our hotel and I crashed in my room for a power nap.

We left for some sight seeing at 1 PM and It was this moment that I realized we need to keep in at this time of the day when it was blazing like a furnace. Yes, in Goa.

We first stopped at Dona Paula. The sun was still flaming  and hence we kept our visit here very brief, enough to capture the relevance of this place and the story behind it. It is  remembrance to two lovers(Dona Paula, Portuguese Viceroy’s daughter  and a Goa Fisher)  who chose to die rather being separated.

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Effigy of Dona Paula and her lover.

Though i was getting roasted , to what i generally call TANDORI CHICKEN , the place was so aesthetic that I managed to survive a few more minutes.

Next, we stopped by one of the beaches en route – Miramar Beach. It was a nice place, but as “The lord of light” was getting more clement upon us I suggested we spend the next hour sitting under a coconut tree , where it felt like a sudden 10 degree temperature drop, and then maybe cross the ocean of live coal because there was no way I was getting my feet sand baked. Hence, we spent the next hour with the wind in our hair and sand at our feet.

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I accept that is very weird. 😀

Sitting idle is a very tiring. It wasn’t long when were famished.  So I , again being a life saver, suggested we utilize this reserve time. It was my second meal of the day ,after breakfast at hotel, and this probably was the best meal in the past 4 days. After the encounter with curries at Mumbai, this was a  scrumptious meal.

 

Kingfish Curry.
Kingfish curry

After this tremendously fulfilling bite, sun finally came down and it was time for some fun in water.

Next day was similar, with a visit to another local beach – Calangute beach. Learning from the past day, we decided to hit the roads at 4 in the afternoon this time so that we reach when it’s sunset. It was a lot pleasant and easy to survive the day this time.

Since the day we arrived at Goa, we were constantly reminded of visiting this amazing beach – Palolem beach with water so blue that one would be mesmerized. So we reserved the coming day  for this exotic visit, because it was 60 Km away from where we lodged ourselves and it would consume a whole day. Moreover, we did not had much to do here so this seemed like a good investment.

When we arrived at the said beach, my first reaction was ❓ where is the blue water? People said, it is high tide and to get into water that clear you either need to wait or go 2 KM inside ocean. 😐 World is full of deception.

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Nonetheless, the place was way better than I explained. Well the sunset made it so. After having a snack and some water play, we left exhausted and drowsy. Once again, I crashed on the bed as we reached back, though my mind was not thnking about rest at the moment. It was occupied with the truth that it would be my last night in Goa and tomorrow I was to leave for home. It was the first time in 7 days that I did not want to go back to my more than abnormal life.

If…

Rudyard Kipling

If you can keep your head when all about you
    Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
    But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
    Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
    And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:

 

If you can dream—and not make dreams your master;
    If you can think—and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
    And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
    Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
    And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

 

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
    And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
    And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
    To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
    Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

 

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
    Or walk with Kings—nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
    If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
    With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
    And—which is more—you’ll be a Man, my son!
—– Rudyard Kipling